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It’s just how we role around here!

It’s just how we roll around here!

I’ve been sat doing a lot of thinking while I’ve been packing to go away on a business trip with a kitten. But I don’t think we’re normal in this family, and I don’t just mean odd, I mean bat crap crazy and stranger than a jumper in July.

What bought this sudden realization to me? A conversation twitter about how I had pack 4 pairs of unicorn socks and 12 pairs of panties for a 2-night trip! But then I also have pack 20 collars, 3 stuffies and a massive tube of lube. I know I’m not normal, and I’m fine about, no really.

I’ve never been what you call ”normal” and from an early age I was labelled ”special”. As a little kid I thought that was a great thing to be, but as I got older I found out that ’special ’ is not such a great thing to be. I was, in fact, a very scornful thing and meant that you were different. It relegated you to the same place as black sheep, funny uncles and those sent to the sisters of mercy.

As I got older it got changed from special, to special needs and I was know to be challenging. Now I should say that my special needs, were nothing more than being dyslexic and struggling to learn my 3rd alphabet. The challenging part was a form of ADD and the fact I was from a home with 2 abusive parents. But I was seen as the problem and got told to stop making excuses and buckle down. But I simply could not do it, being normal hurt, like I was being squashed into a mould that was too small. It had round edges and I had sharp, jagged points. It led to me acting out, getting kicked out of schools and very nearly getting sent to a youth offenders place.

Luckily my nana and my priest (I know right!) saw that I was different in a good way. My Nana and father Michael went in and batted for me, somehow managing to get me one final chance. I got sent a PRU and got help and guidance. I learnt to embrace my quirks, funny habits and being different. I learned that yes I am strange, odd and special, but that can be good and beautiful things.

So fast forward to today, and sure I’m still that odd, different and quirky girl. But I’m doing good. I am succeeding, living a happy and stable life. Sure I could clean for Ireland, I freak out if I have to sit by a bin and have a break down if bird flys over my head. But every day I get up, I know I make people happy, make them smile and make their lives a little bit better. Maister always says I’m his special girl, and that makes me so happy and proud, and I’m ok with that!

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Pixie’s Prompt – three questions, 300 words.

Pixie’s Prompt – three questions, 300 words.
Answer the 3 questions in 300 words or less, but giving reasoned answer.

1) An important person in your life: My Great Aunty May. Simply because she is an amazing woman. Strong minded, open, and clever. She has taught me some many things about being who I am. She is a feisty lady, who is farce and brave, even when she’s not. But the thing I love about her the most is the fact she has been there every step of the way of my recovery. From hospital, to coming home, to remarrying and becoming a mum, she ha been there. Oh, and she can tell the boss man what to do!

2) A thing your life has in excess: Love, my life is full of love. Whether that is giving love, being loved, or feeling love. Some many different types of love. For friends, lovers, family, or my babies. I never thought it was possible to feel this much love and I’m a very blessed lady to have this amount of love in my life.

 

3) How you procrastinate: Well I don’t really! No, I do, but I also must have a lot of structure in my days, or I feel very stressed and like I’m just waiting time. That would then make me panicky and anxious and no one wants that. I guess I do like Pinterest and twitter quite a lot. I also enjoy stripping down to my panties and a t-shirt, turning up the music and dancing round the kitchen. Also, a big fan of taking long baths and naps. But then I am also happy to spend the day writing or to clean for a few hours. For me life is about balance and priorities.

See i can write something in under 300 words!

Hugs,

Pixie

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Days 15 and 16 of the submissive's advent calendar , by submissive guide – our needs reclaimed and the prayer.

Evening all you lovely little kinster! How are all doing this fine Saturday afternoon? what have you been up to? one day someone will actually go ‘ well pixie, today I’ve done XY, & z ‘ But hay hum.

Now before I get started on my daily ramble, I am under orders to make a small confession, cos maîtriser thinks it’s something that should be in the open. I think it makes me look like I’m moaning and people will get sick and tired of hearing me wine on about my health and stuff like that. But being a good girl, I’m doing what he asked, even though I don’t want to d: . I have for the last 10 days been trying to fight off a chest infection. I’m fighting it with help of antibiotics, steroids and extra nbs, and I’m bloody well winning. I didn’t say any thing cos , well I have had some people have digs about me always being sick. The truth is I do get sick a lot and I will always get sick a lot. I try my hardest to sat as healthy as I can, but some times it gets too much and I wind up needing to go in to hospital, which is hard, stressful and upsetting , for myself and the whole of my family. With babies now it has become terrifying , so I’m fighting even harder to get well and stay that way. But I  have also got to a point in my life that I am sick to the back teeth of being told to go fight being sick nice and quietly in a corner , so I don’t upset the nice people. I did that for years with me mother and then my ex, and having to hide something that is a fucking huge part of my life , is actually fucking my mental health over. so yeah , I’m sick, I’m fighting it ,no I want to hide it, no I don’t want you to feel sorry for me , but I do want people to know and respect me! Rant over !!

So now back to yesterdays actuates . the focus was me needs and wants as a submissive . With Christmas fast approaching ,  me needs can more than usable . the first activity started with sitting and make a short list of my current needs, my needs right now. the actual activaty was to make a bunting , to go up in a room in your house , and write on the back one of your bunting and then if the are some not being met , talk to your partner about how they can be met. the second was a simple hot chocolate , to sit down and take 15 mins of me time with a cup of hot chocolate. I had some down time yesterday so I sort of did them both, just slightly different.

For the bunting , I adapted it slightly . I have been making bunting to go over the cots in the twins room. So after I sat down and made my list of needs , instead of writing them on  the back , I carefully stitched the pieces of paper to the back to the bunting. then I got Babe to put them up for me for me, cos I’m not allowed to stand on chairs or ladders.. Then I sat and talked to my partners ( I love saying that) . Now what came to light is that I’m a really lucky girl cos nearly all of them were being met. I had 3 that I felt could be worked on or stuff that could be tweaked. Firstly I wanted more cuddles and kisses, will sound silly but we have all been working silly hours and I just wanted some physical affection. So we have all made time today to cuddle a bit and remember good bye and welcome home kisses! second was my want to start pushing myself harder to get back in shape. This was met with coition. After having twins and a C-section , I’m not allowed to push to hard. but we have agreed that I can do more swimming and up my daily step count. Lastly the was my want to do something with my brain and may do some form of study. well we have agreed that I can up my English lessons, the boss man is going to set me more writing task and today I have signed up to not only my creative writing class , but to do a physics class too! For the second one   maîtriser made me hot almond milk with honey and let sit with my jerboas  for 20 minutes . well I was supposed to mental , but ended plotting out a story!

So on to today’s focus was on prayer and how it can be used to focus the mind. The first activity gave you a ‘Submissive’s Prayer ‘ that has done the rounds on the internet, and to sit and think about it and practice focusing you mind, The second was to write your own prayer or at least have ago. I was feel sick and run down so I did the first activity . This is the submissive prayer we used.

prayer

I have for most of my adult life found prayer a very great way to calm my mind and to reflect on things. So this was a great way to do just that. I spent a lovely quiet 10 minutes just sat , thinking about the word and what they mean to me. after I had finished I felt so relaxed that the boss man-made me go take a nap!

Well that was 15 and 16 , I wonder what 17 holds for us!

Hugs,

pixie x

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Day 8 & 9 of the Submissive's advent calendar, by submissive guide – Time to receive and joy in accomplishment.

So, I’m working this weekend and the end of last week was super busy, so last night I chose to sleep instead of blogging! (Self-care at its most basic). But I did yesterdays activates and I sat down and did today’s and wrote this while having my lunch. I got lucky and could take the babies to work with me and the has been a que of people wanting cuddles, some much so I had a 45-min lunch and nothing to do, so I chose to write!
Yesterday activity focus was receiving a complement and excepting it with grace. Now it echoed a lot of stuff that maître has me working on. He and the writer of the calendar made the point that most people do not give a complement wanting something in return. Also, that by saying, that they are just saying it or that someone could do better than you, are putting not only yourself down and the person giving the complement down too! The first activity was to accept complements for the day and do it with a smile and a thank you. The second was to complement yourself through-out the day. I liked the first second one, but maître liked the first, so I did a combination of both!
It was hard for me to keep telling myself I was doing good, as I really struggle with my self-esteem and my sense of self-worth at times. So, I took it slowly and steady. I chose to focus on the things that I feel I’m good at. Like looking after the babies, house work and being a good friend. The later kind of inspired me to sit down and write to a couple of friends, and I told myself that I would make people happy by doing that. I gave my living room and kitchen a good clean, telling myself I was doing a good job and that I was proud of me. I also congratulated myself for making beautiful babies. Now the tough part for me was accepting a complement, without thinking the persona wanted something. But I did it! A friend on twitter said that I was doing well, that I brightened her day and make her smile every day, So I took it and said thank you! My English teacher told me that he is amazed at how much better my spelling is, and again I said thank you and smiled. Then when maître said I looked pretty, I smiled, hugged, and hid a blushing face in his chest!
Today focus was on what I have accomplished this year and celebrating it. The first activity was to sit and make a list of all the things that I have accomplished this year. The second was to sit and think about what I have achieved this year and then think of a way to celebrate it. As I’m at work and a little pushed for time, I chose the second task.
The biggest thing that I have achieved this year is having the twins. For a very long time I thought that I could not have kids, and I told myself I was happy with that, but deep down it killed me. I did want to them very much, so when last year I got engaged, I kind of broke down the whole kid’s thing can be tumbling out my little head. We decided that if I could not get pregnant we would be looking in to adopting, but we also decided that I would come off the pill and see what happened. Well fast forward to now and I have ended up with 2 screaming bundles of joy, that I love more than life itself! Becoming a mum has been amazing for me. It seems to of made it easier for me to deal with life and given me a sense of worth that I have never had before. So, I decided that I should do something to celebrate that, so I phoned the boss man and asked if I could next week go to the baby flick at my local cinema with my great Uncle Fred, and got the thumbs up!

So that is the last 2 days, lets see what tomorrow brings shall we?

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x

 

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Day 3 of the submissive guides advent calendar for submissives – The wise words.

So today on are submissive advent calendar Words of wisdom that we have been given, found , or stumbled upon in are journey through life or in submission. how they have inspired us and stayed with us over time. The were 2 activities to day. The first was to sit and spend 5 minutes thinking of all the wise words you have received over the years. thinking about how the effect you and why they have stuck with you. The second was to take these wise words and turn them in to a holly bundle Christmas decoration. As much as I wanted to make the holly bundles , we have had a really busy day . We all went to mass , went a bought the last bits of are Christmas decorations , had a Lego building marathon , homework and babies to care for, so we did the first.

It was actually a really awesome way to spend 15 minutes of quiet time. I got to sit with a cup of tea, reflecting on the past and how it has shaped me as a submissive. we as a family , well us girls chose to kind of build on the idea , by listing them and chatting about while we cooked dinner. what was amazing , well I think was how we all had listed advice that we had got from each other and how they had affect us!

some of the words of wisdom I listed.

  • breath , just breath. keep moving forward, take baby steps if you have to but just keep moving, and just breath.
  • What make you weird and different , is you greatest strength.
  • in submission I find power.
  • It’s ok to not be ok all of the time.
  • The is nothing wrong with a good girl having a naughty side.
  • Love should never hurt , unless you want it to.
  • Don’t let the bastards grind you down.
  • Never under-estimate the power of a coy smile and shy eyes.

Well that was todays, cant wait to see what tomorrow brings!

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x

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#SoSS – Spreading the love!(family style)

Right so yeah we thought we would jump on the Share our Shit Saturday band wagon! (the Boss man, the girls and myself . not the Royal we!) to be honest ive had 3 people give me shout outs in the last 3 weeks and really feel the need of d to share the love for some pretty epic bloggy -woggy- do dah peeps that are out there. (I’m going to point out , I’m not drunk or high , but I’m that tired at the moment and had to deal with dog drama today, that it has fried my brain a little bit! ). So having said that I was going to do this to the girls, they wanted to join in and the French man was like, oh well I’ll have some stuff I wont to big up too! So we are doing a  big old family round-up! What we have done is each pick 3 things / blogs / People we are loving and rambled about why we like them, So here goes!

Maîtriser / Boss man

From Daddy’s Desk, with John Brownstone. – A short video from John Brownstone from the Loving BDSM podcast, on why it’s not cool to use silence as away of punishing a submissive. This gent has articulated my thoughts in a much better way than I could have. as I would have said don’t treat you sub as second class citizen, grow up and stop being a dick! Clear , to the point and highlighting that it can do more harm than good.

Wear and Tear, by Molly Moore, for KOTW – Beautiful piece and stunning photo by Molly Moore of Molly’s daily kisses. Good read, but the best part by far is the picture she took of herself. Getting across how arousing knife play and cutting off of clothes can be!

Anxiety and Events, By the princess of kink, for Kinkcraft. – Now I should say that the Kinkcraft Podcast is in my girls top podcast. Bless them , they will all sit at the kitchen table and listen to Andrew and Pixie , then afterwards they will discuss what they had been talking about and each give their take on it. This article really hit a cord with me as mouse suffers so badly with G.A.D. it gave me more ideas of how to help her and also made me look at things from her view point. So Thank you to all involved!

Babe –

Pink hai don’t care!!! Learning to love myself! – A Post from the wonderful Candysnatch, a blogger who has a great outlook on life and is the epitome of body and sex posativatey . I read this article and past it on to are little bear, who has really bad problems with her body image problems. It has given her a real boost and as a knock on effect we have much happier little bear! So Big thank gouges lady!

Drama in the BDSM comunity , Loving BDSM. This one was kind of said what we all want to say about people bringing drama in to a D/s or kink environment. It really was wicked for people to actually say what we thought , but out loud for a change. lol basically the advise is just to deal with it calmly , talk to people, find your on fit , speak up or to someone as needed , and for everyone to just try the hardest to get the fuck a long! Little Pixie loved this on and she giggled the whole way through, so a Big thank you to Kayla and John! x

Hoilday gift guide 2017. By Coffee and Kink. – Really big thanks for this article. I hate Christmas shopping and I never know what to get people , but this is a fucking awesome guided to what is hot for the kinkies in my life!

Kitten –

Bisexuality, episode 48. Proudtobekinky podcast. -so we all love the Proudtobekinky podcast and when we first listen to this one it was kind of light bulb moment for us all! Floss was speaking for not just her but us too! So many myths got busted in this one podcast. Pixie also listen to this with Aunty May , who said ‘That girls got away with words and talks a lot of sense’ . So if she is saying it’s worth a listen it’s worth a listen!

Bitch. – Beatiful picture of an Irish blogger that we are all a little obsessed with! Great use of colour and lighting, positioning and placement. Sends shiver down my spine. Lace – Sinfull Sunday #344, by Little Switch Bitch.

Southern Sir’s Place, By John Brownstone.  – So we are not really allowed to fallow blogs of other dominates unless the boss man knows them in person. But the is a the odd exception , Sir Beasty is one and  rather new one is Mr John Brownstone. His blog is now one of are favourites. The are great post for Sinful Sunday, Kink of the week and about his life! one of the most funny , sweetest and loving Dom that the is around and on the net!

Little Bear

The complete truth about Daddy Doms and little girls , By Kayla Lords , For KinkCraft. – I’m a little and I love being a little , but I some times feel people think I just act like a child and do it for attention. No I do it cos it is part of who I am and allows me to feel happy, safe and loved. This article by Kayla lords sums everything up so well and is right on the money for me. Thank you Mrs Babygirl!

Sinful Sundaysinful Sunday is one of Molly Moore’s memes . Your given a prompt every month and come up with sexy Picture that you feel fits the prompt or any other sexy pic you want to add. I’m not good at taking pics , but I love looking and reading what others come up with!

Submiisve Guidesubmissive guide is a site I love, its full of all things to do with submission and great ideas. with article and ebooks that you can download and keep. We have got the submissive advent Callender and I can’t wait for it to be time to start it!

Mouse –

Torture Garden Special , Floss does life. when I was younger I used to love go to To TG , but after things went pear-shaped for me I stop going and now my anxiety levels are stopping me from going. Read this piece by floss was like being there myself, she made I sound so really. I could almost feel the beat of the music and see all the bright colours. She has really got it spot on and has got me going I have to make it back to TG next year!

How to picth your idea to website, By the smutancer. Great article by Kayla Lords , aka the smutlancer. All about how to pitch ideas to people and companies. Now I have not use this to pitch writing stuff to kinky peeps yet, but I did use the advice and use it in my none kinky life, selling some article and 4 course idea, so it really does work. Pretty much everything on the smutlancer is super helpful and so easy to understand!

Wicked Wednesday, Reblsnotes.com – Wicked Wednesday is one of my fav writing memes on the net! Great prompts weekly and you can write erotica or a little bit about your real life. Love the feedback you get and the support you get!

Podcast we love and thing everyone should give a listen!(even Great Aunty May agrees)

Loving BDSM

Kinkcraft

Proudtobekinky

The Dildorks

Black People Kink

Cousenually Speaking

Off the cuffs

And lastly ….. My great Aunty May wanted this to be included as she thinks it’s the funniest , best written and most relevent Podcast around at the moment, and that all men and women should listen to it! The Guilty Feminist.

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x

Ps this was meant to be posted on Saturday, but I was a bit manic , then on sunday all I did was cry and giggle , then last night but I fell asleep again! So it’s posted on a Tuesday!

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Question time with the girl….. and ravenhaired_sub.

So up this we have the Stunning hottie that is the Miss Walker or @ravenhaired_sub .A bit of a twitter star, sharing her life with her equaly hot Husband and Daddy , in words and picture that always make us smile! Kinky positive and one of the best role models for DDlg and D/s that we have the pleasure to meet! So here is our Q/a with her…..

1. When did you realise you had a kinky side? (babe) Pretty much a few years into becoming sexually aware, so at least by my mid/late teens.
2. What things make a good submissive? (kitten) I don’t know if there is a “right” answer for this (I think it depends on the dynamic) – but being trustworthy and honest with your Dominant would be what I would expect though.
3. What do you do for none kinky fun? (Mouse) I like to read and I’m pretty much a horror fanatic. Anything gothic or to do with serial killers will get my attention, this could be a book, TV programme or film. I’m also a bit of a foodie so I enjoy dining out.
4. Do you have any guilty pleasures and what are they? (little Bear) I have no guilty pleasures, they are all guilt free!
5. What is your favourite type of music and why? (All) Rock or metal. The musicianship that goes into this genre is second to none.
6. What makes for a perfect date night? (little Bear)  An intimate dinner date, followed by a stroll and good conversation.
7. What are your thoughts on body piercings and tattoos? (Mouse) I’m don’t mind piercing providing it’s not excessive, especially in the face. As far as tattoos go, I would say I love tattoos, but I actually love well done tattoos ????
8. What are your top 3 sex toys and why? (kitten) 1. The Magic Wand, just the intensity is amazing. 2. Butt plug, instant wetness for me. 3. Nipple/clit clamp, again, just a huge turn on. The pain mixed with pleasure.
9. What does sub space look and feel like to you? (Babe) Sub space to me as a feeling of relaxation, of total calm. Where I am out of my body almost.
10. Have you ever acted out any sexual fantasy and if so what were they? I will be soon but it’s a secret! ????
Silly question from little bear.
Where do you stand on stuffies? I love stuffies! My Tsumtsum ones are my faves!
Why does it take so long to get ready for a night out? …Because we have to always looks our best!
What is your favourite fruit? Strawberries
Do you like pop tarts? Never tried them!
Can you touch your nose with your tongue? Only a little bit!

Hope you enjoyed reading as much as we did!

Hugs,

Pixie x x x x

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The girl in the mirror, learning to love myself.

The girl in the mirror, learning to love myself.
I have never really had a great love of what I see when I look in the mirror. I never liked how I looked growing up as a kid. I was small and scrawny as little kid. I had thick glasses, red frizzy hair, thick glasses and a tiny up turned pig nose. Then at the age of 9 need to take steroids for health problems and I put on weight. I was bullied badly at school and at home, by my mother and her father. When I turn 13 a grow about 5 inches in a year and I start to train at a boxing club with my dad. I lost weight, gained muscle and attitude. I chose to fight back at the bullies and the world. but this led to me getting kicked out of school for being a ‘troubled ‘kid.
Fast forward a to a few years ago and you see a girl whose self-esteem is rock bottom, who hides herself away. My body was covered in scares from years of self harm and tattoos from my years of angry rebellion against a harsh world. Stretch mark from rapped weight gain and then weight loss. Add more scares from chest drains from ill health and miss shaped bits from bike accidents and broken bits from my beatings from my ex. So, when my darling Maîtriser came in to my life a few years ago, one of the First things he wanted me to work on was my, in his view titled perception of my body. He said he wanted to me to see myself the way he and the rest of the world saw me, and not how my broken brain saw myself.
So, with therapy, gym workouts and time and love, I started to work on my self-esteem and started to challenge how I saw myself. One of the things I did and still do from time to time is put myself down. I will say something like I hate my face or I’m so fat. This upsets maîtriser, he says it’s like me saying that he is not right that I am worth him loving. At first, I was not sure I was worthy, but as the days went on and I feel increasingly in love and I learned to trust again, I saw that he was right. So, I tried to stop, but I still slipped from time to time.
As a sort of punishment and sort of his way of challenging this, he would for ever put down I made about myself I would have to come up with 10 things I liked about the way I looked. Having just had twins, the put downs have come to the surface again. So, when I said, ‘lord my face looks so chubby’ I was made to stand in front of the mirror again and make my list of 10 things I like, here is what I found
1. I love the colour of my eyes and how they seem to change with my mood.
2. I like my small pug nose and how it’s too small to keep my glasses on when I sneeze.
3. I love my high cheek bones and dimples.
4. I love my Hight. Just right that I can rest my head on maîtriser shoulder when we dance.
5. I love my small hands, that are strong and know how to do so many things.
6. I love my boobs and nipples, and the amazing feeling I get when they are played with.
7. I love the stretch marks on my tummy and hips. Reminds me of caring my babies.
8. I like the scares on rib cage. They remind me of the strength it took to fight back from illness
9. I like the scare on my left for arm. It makes me think that, given time scares fade, if not always leave you totally
10. I love the tan line on my ring finger, reminds me of being married to maîtriser and how special are bond is.
I don’t think I’m ever going to the type of person who is going to spend hours looking in the mirror. But I have learned to like what I see and realised that if maîtriser is happy and loves what he sees, then so should I, cos he is a man who is rarely wrong about stuff like that.

I really loved writing this and I feel like it was something I needed to do, without knowing I did. Does that make sense? I wrote today at a coffee shop, while my little ones dozed in their pram and the rest of the world went about their business. For now my life is good, happy and settled.

Pixie x x x x

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Question time with the girls …. and Candysnatch Reviews.

So up this week on are little question time is the one and only Candysnatch Reviews.. A Sex toy reviewer, who is epic in her body positive stance , blogger, sexy vixen , who little bear keeps saying she wants to be like her! I highly recommend poping over to her site or following her on twitter @Candysnatchrewviews. so here we are and hope you enjoy!

Question time with the girls…. And Candy snatch review.
1. Sub, Dom, Switch, Discus? (Babe) I personally am a switch. I’m very happy playing on either side of this fence but in the last few years I’ve found myself leaning slightly towards a submissive persuasion. Definitely falling into a bratty little role more and more. That said I love to play Goddess and be worshipped. I guess I’m spoilt and just want the best of both.
2. Do you have any favourite kinks and if so what are they? (Kitten) oh god I have so many lol! I love to be restrained that’s probably my favourite kink. I love sex in public, the thrill of the risk drives me crazy. I love a bit of role play too. It’s great to be able to just go crazy in a scene and be something or someone you’re not. Pure fantasy play.
3. If you could visit any place, where would it be and why? (mouse) Erm, I’ve always wanted to visit Italy. It’s not somewhere I’ve been yet but I’d love to visit Rome and see all the art and architecture. Despite not being at all religious I’d love to see The Vatican. Fuck knows why lol.
4. What is the best burger in the world and why? (little bear) I’m actually a vegetarian lol. So this is quite a hard one for me. But there’s a 50s style diner where I live called The Hot Rod Diner and they make a bloody amazing veggie stacked burger. I have it with sweet potato fries and a raspberry milkshake.
5. Who has been the biggest influence in your life and why? (All) oh this is a hard one. I’d go with my former manager. She taught me how to be a strong manager and the importance of consistency and reliability. Someone recently told me I remind them of her before they knew I worked for her and it was a huge compliment. Other wise my two best friends. One male… one female and they influence almost everything I do. I’d be lost without them.
6. What are the first 5 things you do in the morning? (little bear) ok so without doubt first thing I do is check my phone and answer emails before I’ve even left the bed. I work with an American company as a writer and so often wake up to time difference emails. Second I spend some time cuddling my dogs who go mental as soon as I’m up and about. Thirdly straight into the bathroom to wash and brush up. Fourth would be dressed/hair/makeup my vanity knows no bounds and I always have a full face of make up even for work. Fifth would be get my kids up before I leave for work and spend a very brief amount of time checking what they need for the day. Then out the door!
7. What is your favourite room in your house and why? (Mouse) my bedroom. I recently decorated it and I spent ages picking everything out so it’s finally the room of my dreams. A pretty little 50s style boudoir full of lingerie and pin up girls. It’s my favourite place in the world.
8. What does your working week look like? (Kitten) My working week is busy busy busy. Outside of running my site I’m second chef in a busy care home. 4 days a week I’m up at 5 and out the door by half 6. I spend 8 hours running around my kitchen like a thing possessed and then come home by 3 ready to greet my girls home and be mum.  Around my 4 chefing days I also schedule 2 full days for the blog and reviewing and regularly fit freelancing in after kitchen shifts. It’s not unusual for me to work 12 hour days and sometimes 10 days on a run.
9. Do you like to cook and what type of food do you like? (Babe) Given my occupation I obviously cook loads. My favourite aspect is baking and when I get a rare day off I’m often found baking. Particularly at Christmas when I bake for family and friends too.
10. If you could have a super power, what would it be and why? I would have to say I’d love the power to talk to animals just so I could talk to my dogs. Hahaha I talk to them anyway but it would be lovely to know what they’re thinking.
Silly Questions from little bear.
What is the best breakfast cereal in the world? Crunchy nut cornflakes!
Where in the world would you live if you could live anywhere and why? Somewhere hot and beautiful. I was recently seriously tempted to move to Majorca! I’d love to be able to walk on white sands on my days off.
Leather, Latex, or silk? Latex! I love Latex so much the feeling is incredible.
Castle, palace, or mansion? Palace. I’m far too much of a princess for either of the others.
What is your favourite colour? PINK! Every day of the week.

hugs,

Pixie x x x x

 

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Tattooed Heart.

Do I like tattoos? Umm, well yes, yes, I do! No, I don’t like them, I love them. I should really confess here, before I go any farther to being what the Boss Man calls a tattoo addict. I Love how they look on other people, on me and I see them as one of the most beautiful forms of artwork that the is. I grew up in a very strict Irish catholic / Russian orthodox culture, where the word tattoo was a dirty word and a taboo. I guess that kind of fuelled my love of them!
From a very early age (5 or 6) they fascinated me. I can remember being sat on my great uncle Tony’s knee and quizzing him about the pictures on his arms. He had been in the mechation navy in WW2 and it seemed he got a new one every port he was every in. he would sit and tell the story of each one. As I grew older I saw another side to men with tattoos. I have ridden motor bikes from the age of 4 (I think). doing trials ridding and then motor cross. This is where I started to see them as art work and not just ink on skin. When I hit my teens, I didn’t get crushes on boy band types, no it was bikers I wanted. Over the years I was increasingly attracted to strong men, who wore their ink with pride. My first proper boyfriend was in the RAF and had military tattoos and I think that is what got my attention. Fast forward to now and I find myself married to a heavily tattooed, bearded, muscled biker of my own! Who I will add sits and tells me the story behind all his ink!
I also adore them on women. The is something about some well place ink that I think and feel is highly erotic. Most of the ladies I know who have been under the needle have tattoos that show strength and courage. They are stunning and dark, yet still manage to be feminine and soft at the same time. I also love the small, understated tattoo, that show the slightest hint of a daring wild side. The whole Pin up look, but with tattoos is a look that I find appealing and something I aspire to!
Now as for my own ink, well I have a lot of it. I have 35 of them. they start with a feather behind my right ear and end with the word ohana on the inside of my left ankle. They all have a deep and special meaning. The ones on my back are sort of badges of hunger. the one under my boobs have been redone and covered over, now caring a message to how ever gets to see, that this girl has survived domestic abuse. The ones on my hips are evidence of my misspent youth and my love for my Irish roots. They ones on my left leg show that even after being broken and left with scares something beautiful can come. The cladder on my left leg was done after I married the boss man. He has the same one on his left pec, next to the word ohana.
As for getting tattoos, well that is something I can’t get enough of. It’s kind of like I get to be an artist canvas. I have only ever been tattooed by 4 people and 80 {df7bb8344c8fbc08004428db04482721bad042a20adaf6cb6f45d2148c3c353a} of that work was done by one person, who I now class as a dear friend. Then for me the is the act of have the tattoo done. Now I love some sorts of pain and it turns out tattooing is right up there with a good old spanking for this girl. The guy who does most of mine has a light airy studio, he lets you sit and stroke his dog buba to keep you calm and always make sure you are relaxed. Then he cleans your skin, applies the design and then he starts, and that is when magic begins. Slow and steady, with the right amount of stinging, burning and the tingle. at first, I tense up a little first and then I slowly relax in to it and focus on my breathing.as the clam settles in to my bones, I can let my mind wander and then the is just the sweet pain. It is kind of like going into subspace and its blissful for me. when it ends I get a cup of tea and a chocolate biscuit and then I float home on my happy little clouds of endorphins! I have a lot more planed.
And to end, my favoured of my tattoos, well that is the one on the inside of my right wrist. It is an arrow and above it read Warr;or. It was done the day I was discharged from hospital, after a 3 month stay due to a botched attempt at taking my life. It is my reminder to not give up, to keep fighting and never forget that I am worth so much more alive than dead.

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hugs,

Pixie x x x x

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